In the last week, I have been fortunate enough to have one of those cool “Ah-ha!” moments.  Spiritually I have been learning a lot about letting go of your ego.  Not only did I learn that this is the area in the mind where our “hell” lives, but our consciousness is where our Heaven exist.  It was also taught to me that our children are extentions of our consciousness and egos.  This is why there are so many repeated family traits from one generation to the next.

Our egos hold our insecurties, our trust issues, the pain from our past, our worries about the future, or the way we “think” we feel about ourselves.  Because we have not been taught over hundreds of years how to properly let go of emotional pain, we have all become extremely unbalanced with our consciousness compared to our ego.  This ego has no intelligence, it only knows of habit, and how to coat pain.  It is up to us individually to decide to bring back a balance to our minds before True intelligence can shut the ego up. 

The consciousness is where God lives.  It is where Truth, Love, and intelligence reside.  The more we cleanse our egos of the illusion it holds, the closer we become with God.  But what happens when we can’t decide what is truth and what is our ego?  That confusion is our dark egos way of turning us away from the One Source that can bring us freedom in our lives.

As my gift has been evolving in the past couple of years, I can really feel this balance coming back to my mind.  No!  Its not easy to do this!  I will not fool anyone by saying that you should just “let go” and God will save the day!  God will not come in to save your day until you surrender that part of your ego that holds you back in life.  Believe me when I say that I have been tormented by mine!  It has been an insane experience in every sense of the word.  I almost have to say that physical torture would be easier than surrendering your ego to God.  Every time I think I have all the dark pieces cleared out God shows me more.  Mine are mostly self worth and trust issues.  These two major issues in my mind have kept me from my full potential in every part of my life.  Is it my fault?  No!  Is it my parents, or their parents fault?  No!  It is a cycle that has been carried on, and now needs surrendered.  As I have been working on the self worth part of it I have noticed my oldest daughter drowning in emotion, and not knowing why.  It wasn’t until I remembered what I was taught about how our children are extensions of our egos, and consciousness that I realized I was tapping into her ego as well to release that attachment.  She had no clue what I had been doing, but when I found her extremely emotional and asked what was wrong, it was her unknowing answer that rang a bell in my head.  I had been feeling so fed up that day with trying to surrender my ego that I must have done something right.  Because all my daughter could explain to me with tears running down her face was that she felt fed up, and didnt know why. 

If you have children, look at each one of them, and see where you are in them.  Look at either your ego within them, or your consciousness.  This is what is truly happening to our children today.  The ego side has grown so massive that they are being born with tortured minds, but no past yet to validate it.  We are in a sense giving birth to the darker sides of us that hurt so much.  Some of our children can come out more consciousness, but if you look at the world today you are seeing clearly that most kids are walking egos.  This does not mean that they are self righteous in the sense of boasting themselves.  It means they are completely insecure and using food, drugs, sex, etc… to coat their pain.

I have said before that my new gift comes with a down side.  I am able to see evil, or personal demons around everyone.  But truly what I am seeing is everyones egos in a manifestation form.  When I see more consciousness around someone, I see angels or the Light of God.  If we truly want to put an end to all this craziness in our world right now, even the weather changes, we first must look within ourselves and do an ego check.  If your your life feels negative right now, and you cant seem to get anywhere no matter how hard you try, do a quick ego check.  God is ready and standing by waiting for you to give your pain up to Him.  Remember, forgiveness and gratitude are the key to this!  Dont forget to forgive yourself for carrying whatever it is for so long.  You deserve it!  This is why Jesus kept showing us that we are forgiven for anything we do, but first we must forgive ourselves.  Surrender that part of your ego that tells you that you cant let go of the pain, or that a certain person does not deserve it.  Dont hurt yourself anymore by holding on.

I plan on doing another piece on this, so please keep checking back because there is a TON of information that has been given to me on this for us all to share as a gift.

God bless,

Kelli Faulkner