Thursday, 15. October 2009 13:57
One of my very special friends wrote me the other day to tell me she had a very vivid dream that moved her.
She had a dream of her late husband who was taken too early in life several years ago. In the dream, she said her husband was really alive but had been living in a nursing home all this time and she had been ignoring him.
I was in shock when I heard this dream because the week prior I had a dream about my grandmother. She came to me and said she was still alive but had been living in a nursing home the past 15 years.
I couldn’t understand this within my dream because my grandmother never spent one day in a nursing home before her passing. She didn’t even spend time in the hospital except to discover she had cancer.
It wasn’t until my friend told me of her dream that I realized this was about letting go.
My reaction was sadness when my grandma told me she was in a nursing home for all those years. I felt as though I had been lied to or abandoned.
My friend felt guilt even though she is remarried with a beautiful child, she felt as though she had abandon her late husband somehow.
Everything we say and do to ourselves and others creates a spot within our consciousness. When you were a child and if someone made fun of you, they shot a hole into your consciousness/ego.
After time those “shots” that we get thru life multiply. They become nesting grounds for negativity to manifest or breed in. As the breeding continues it makes its way to our physical bodies and creates sicknesses. Mine was within my pancreas. I had so much fear-guilt-pain that it made its way to my pancreas and began destruction.
How do you undo something like this? You begin creating Spiritual Patches.
You cannot just forgive yourself or others and walk away because the hole is still there.
To truly let go, you have to create a patch by facing the fear it created. After years of self hate because I thought I wasnt good enough, I had huge holes to patch.
The fear had kept me from doing things in life and facing things that looked too hard.
Thats why my website is so special to me today. I stepped up and showed myself that I am a smart soul/human. It might not be the most perfect work but I did it!
I had been hiding for years from my site and asking others to do the work that I was so afraid to do. Afraid of failure. By doing this, I have now created a Spiritual Patch for one of my holes of fear. That hole no longer exist!
This is truly how we let go and face our fears.
Remember: For every action there is a reaction.
Your mind is so much more powerful than you realize. If you can create that much pain within you, inturn it creates physical illnesses. Think about how much you can create by making a Spiritual Patch. Nothing but Love can come from it!
Our world needs to start taking responsibility for the pain its carrying. If we just think before we say something, beaware before you think a negative thought, this is how we will heal the universe from all of our shots we have fired into it.
We will all be hurt in life, and at times it will be so totally unfair, but at the end of the pain it is promised to us that there will be a blessing.
I am working hard at putting my “gun” down so I dont hurt myself anymore or anyone else who happens to be walking by.